I’m increasing my anxiety medication again. I wonder where the top level of this medication is… and what I would have to do if I made it to the ‘top’ and it still wasn’t enough.
Whenever I increase my meds, the first couple of days wipe me out with minor side effects, then the next couple days are great. Then, by the end of the month, I start to think I may need to increase again. Normally I wait another month, to make sure that everything has had a chance to even out. Then I call the doctor and ask for the increase.
Its definitely getting better, though. I don’t feel like I’m having a heart attack. My muscles are not so tense that I feel like I may pass out. But, I’m not anxiety free yet. At first, I thought that maybe I should stop messing with my medication level. You know, like this is the best that it’ll get, and I should be thankful.
Then, I started noticing that I’m wanting to sleep much more often than before. And, that I’m sending the roommate out to the store to get the necessities, instead of going myself. The final kicker this time is that I chose to stay home from work this past week instead of working my already limited hours due to dropped sales. I just couldn’t motivate myself at all to get out of my house…
I called the doctor today.
I’ll start the new dosage after this month’s script runs out, which is in less than a week.
Let’s hope this is the magic dosage for me. I’m ready to have complete control over this.


